Going Flat

I noticed that when Im wearing a flat shoes I save more energy than usual! Being a teacher that requires me to walk up the 4th floor 4 times a day, climbing to the staff room 10 times a day and standing while teaching in the class whole day it somehow sounds so absurd for me to slip on a pair of high heels. I wonder still how do the other female teachers can stand the torture?

Flat shoes give is very comfy, roomier and easy for me to move around real quick and the best part is, those brats at school can never guess when im around and getting nearer to them hehe...Best time to attack.Surpise surprise!

Well not that sexy me aight? I know. I think otherwise...

Anyway on a happy note both my Sis and future SIL were qualified to enroll in the KPM Foundation programme in Tangkak. Congrats to both u lovely sis!

And on another separate happy note, Happy 3rd Anniversary to dearest Deqnor & Razi. 3 beautiful years with 2 cuddly heroes to brighten up their days. And I am still the same me with extra 10 lbs heavier. Sheeeesh. I hate it when time flies! Oh and thank you Deq for keeping in touch.Very much appreciated!

p/s: My darling fiancee also has been gaining weight. He thought maybe its not about the way we eat(hey, I watch my diet okey?). Its the hormone. What do you think? Hmmmm???

Dip. Ed.

Went to IPPM yesterday. I waited like ages for them to post my result. I had myself sent them an empty envelope for their convenience to rerpost it back to me but no, they are all "too busy" for God only knows what...So I decided to take things on my own.

And guess what?? I got 3.61 woohoo!!! Congratulations Suhana!Well surely there are plenty of them whom are way more genius than I am. But that is not the point. I made another record for my life achievement.Good for me hehe.

Yes I may be excellent in education theoretically but technically I'm not as good as a teacher. How can I be one if I never have a heart in this area. Im not saying that I was a good RO either. When I was an RO I never get to complain of the terrible loadworks.I somehow enjoy the piling up of my desk.

Im not saying that I dislike teaching because of the small pay. To tell u the truth the pay was equivalent to my last post. Im talking about work passion here. Its almost 4 months and still I imagine handling a pippette when actually I was holding a chalk in my hand. Hehe..The thing is I sometimes miss my job. I wish I could get back to the area of researching. But u know the saying everything happens for areason. I can accept that.

Its just that being a teacher is not as easy as you think. Whats with the students, the colleague and ooohh did i mentioned about the school birocracy? Its suck!

Oh well at least I get a full support from my darling fiancee.I must say he is a very good teacher. A tough one. the school like very much depending on him and yet he never complained. He is truly my inspiration.Wow suddenly I miss him so much. When was the last time I saw him??? Hmmm....Went to Melaka yesterday and not having the chance to meet him. What a waste. Oh right, he is schooling while Im not hehe...

Anyway wish me luck. Iam currently jeopardising my whole entire life!

Not Forgiven Nor Forgotten

Okey, before anything let me tell you that im not being harsh to anyone by the look of the blog entry. I think that I am being insulted. Offended more likely.

I have a friend, X. So this friend maybe a bit short-tempered person. Apparently X likes to pour her anger at no matter anyone at me. I can take it if I make her angry. But no!! Remember I wrote about me being the punching bag?? X happens to be my regular customer...

Well, surely X would apologizes the next day and things would be just as normal afterwards.The thing is I don't think I can sincerely forgive X. Once in a while boleh la, kalau selalu?

Yeah, call me a vindictive person. Maybe I am. I mean, whats the point of forgiving a person when you perfectly sure that she/he will do the same mistake over and over again? Somehow SORRY is no longer an apologizing sacred word for me no more. Its a typical over used phrase! When you simply forgive a person its like you giving them a season pass to repeat the same stupid mistakes whenever they feel free to do so??

Now tell me who is being cruel and unfair?

Obviously not me!

Im not holding grudges for nothing.

Flying Colours

Alhamdulillah my sister Suhailah obtained 7As for her SPM. That is waaaaayyy better than mine 10 years ago hehe. Come to think about it, mine wasn't just bad, it was terrible! Phheeww...but I made it to the best tertiary education centre in Malaysia.Tough luck eh? My future SIL Atiqah also not bad. She got 8As. Budak-budak sekarang ni pandai-pandai belaka. Ke aku jer dulu yang....

Anyway BIG CONGRATULATIONS to both of them lovely sisters. Hopefully they would enroll in the best university and the course of their choices and most of all not ending up like me. Seriously Im happy for both of u girls!

On a separate happy note, congratulation also to my other future SIL Ilyani and hubby Joe for their first newborn baby. And its a girl! She must be so adorable.Like me.Hehe.Can't wait to meet her this coming weekend.

The Ring Bearer (edited)

Alhamdulillah the ceremony went well. A million thanks to all who came to my engagement. For those who cant make it to my day, well it would've been merrier if u guys were there! Sadly not much pictures were taken. I'm not sure what kept me busy that day??

Anyway, still I can not believe that ...I am engaged!

May our love last for eternity. Remains forever. Amin.

The One Who Celebrates His Birthday

Today 15 February 2007 is my darling Amzari's birthday. I am so glad that my card arrived exactly today and could give him some sort of a surprise. Well, at least I make him smile after a long day at school.

To the love of my life, may all your dreams come true. May you lead a happy life and may our love remains forever. For eternity. Amin.

On another happy note, I am sooooo relief that my annual school's Sports Day finally over. Oh, u have no idea how hectic I was this whole week. I mean of course every week is a hectic week, but this one is really a major super hectic week!

U see, of all the hundreds teachers in the school, I was so unfortunate to be picked as the emcee for, in my opinion a big hell of an event. I have to be at school as early as 8am in the morning return home just to change cloth and headed back to school to teach in the evening. And I call it a day at 7pm.

Fiuuuuhhh...I know maybe for some of u mine was not such a big deal. But get this.Doing the thing u have no idea what ur doing or have not an inch of interest of doing it at all for almost 12 hrs straight for a week. How about that? Yeah..u know what Im saying.Terrible!!

Now that the damage has been done,(Oh did I tell u what a horrible emcee I was hehe...) its time to get thrilled for the next event.OMG I cannot believe Sunday is just two days away!!!! The one event of my life. Im so excited. I really hope my best buddies can come on my special day. But I know they are all far away and may have their own agenda. But girls, I really really appreciate it if u can make it. Pleaseeeeeee hehe...

I hope everything is going to be fine this weekend. I miss him so much.After a very hard week its good to see the face that tranquilizes me instantly. After all its been a while since I last saw him.

To all my friends, do pray for our happiness.Luv u guys, really!

Blues Untuk Aku

have u ever wake up in the morning feeling something isn't right. u wanted so much to get back into slumber. but no matter how hard u try u just couldn't.

i do. almost everyday. the moment i open my eyes the sense of uneasiness crawling instantly up my chest, back my spine n all over my body. i wish i wasn't awake at that time. i dunno what causes that thing to happen n why. okey, okey. i do know why. but even if i tell u won't gonna believe me. or do u????

i miss him. there. i spilled it out. oh, it is soooo embarassing. i know u'd laugh!

well, that was only one ten of the cause. the rest i need not have to state it here.

see, the feeling of missing somebody is somewhat a disturbance! i could go mad had i not pull myself together. i could kill myself if i keep on carried away like this!

i like it yet hate it at the same time. it makes me so weak and vulnerable.*sigh*

the feeling of missing someone is truly undoubtly an ultimate powerful feeling i guess no one can deny.

am i right or am i right??