Sunday, December 30, 2007


It took us quite some time for us, me and hubby to decide where to go for our honeymoon. Knowing me the ever so indecisive girl! However hubby listed some options and make me pick one. Somehow we decided to travel in Malaysia and will hit somewhere farther next year. Well, that's the initial plan lah.

Eventually we decided to fly to Sabah.So how was the honeymoon?To tell the truth we didn't go anywhere. Actually we could'nt go anywhere because of the constant pouring rain.Okey la, we did go to see the orang utan.

So what did we do the whole Sabah stay? We end up lepak-lepak rumah Mak Ngah and makan. Makan makan makan jer keje! Tak sempat nak rasa kenyang dah makan lagi. Her delicacies semunaya superb! And Mak Ngah and Pak Ngah seems to know all the places with good food in Sandakan. I like!

Can't wait for the real honeymoon next year. Where would our destination be? Im thinking island somewhere in Thailand.Any idea guys?

Happy 2008 to all!


Thursday, November 29, 2007

Happily Ever After

Alhamdulillah. Both sides punye wedding reception all went well. Big thanks to my families and all who has been working round the clock to make sure our big day went as smooth as planned.

I just celebrated my 1 month anni last Monday. I was like, dah sebulan jadi bini orang?? Kih kih kih...

So people keep asking how 's life now that I am married? Of course la much more happier! Hubby lagi la kene tanya soalan-soalan yang x-rated...Kesian dia...Apelah orang-orang nih...Takde soalan lain ke?

I would also like to convey a special thanks to my two bestfriends who came all the way down south hanya untuk menemaniku di saat-saat akhir zaman bachelorettehoodku hehe...Thank you sooo much Nid and Adila.You both are the greatest.By the way korang punye balang kerepek dah habis belum ;p

And also to all my friends from around Malaysia, thank you for coming. You guys really made my day!!

But something happen a few days before my big day which made me sooo upset. The words that came out from a family of mine was really hurtful. Yes, I may forgive that person for being so immature (No, you are being so stupid donkey!)but really, to be frank Im not good at the term FORGIVE AND FORGET.No, I'll never forget each and every single word, the face gestures and the cynical voice that person threw at me. Im sorry.

Just so you know, what goes around comes around. What you give you will get back.Im not asking for anything.Let God sort it out for me. Hanya Tuhan yang mampu membalas segala perbuatannya itu.I will try the hardest not to be so vindictive.Anyway you are insane.

Moving on. I will try my best to be a good wife to my darling hubby and an affectionate mummy to my future children.

Pray only the best for both of us ya!

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Shit Happens

I hope its not too late to wish all of you Muslims Happy Al- Mubarak.

So last week, I got my name scribbled on the floor at the back of the class by my so-called-supergenius-students. It read SUHANA IS DEAD. What an appreciation. This is how Im paid for educating a bunch of brats. For those who really know me Im not that bad at all. Seriously Im the sweetest thing ever. Hehe.Hey, Im supposed to be adored okay, but they wanted me dead!

Fine! If that's what they want that should be the exact thing they will get. I told you before I can be as sweet as candy and as vicious as a monster can be. They despise me when Im alive, see what happen when you have a zombie teacher crawling and tagging you along the school. How's that like? Use your imagination. Hah! Then they'll regret for the rest of their school years. Nak pindah sekolah? I'll arrange it right away!!!!!!

I didn't mean all of the students in the class. They are all good except for the 2,3 persons yang perasan macam bagus. I tell you, they haven't reach their puberty yet nak jadi gangster?? Ppbhhhttt...Only that they don't have a clue that their teacher is lagi gangster, wait till they see the principal. Okay, I went too far.

On other separate note, OMG today is September 26th!(I got the date right kan Dd hehe?) That means another month to go!! Again am I ready?????? Sheeeeshh my head keep spinning at school thinking about what I haven't done yet. Uurgghhhh...

Oh and today is also my bro Ali's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you!!!

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

With All Due Respect...

Okey, I've decided to edit and repost my previous entry and put it in with the sweeeeetest and nicest words possible. I'd like to rephrase my improper and harsh (mild) sentences because unlike some people, I still have an intact and well-functioned brain and above all, I still have a HEART.

So here it goes....

Dear friends,

I am sorry if i dissappoint or may not reach your expectations in any ways. None of the moments happened intentionally. Perhaps you should understand that I can not satisfy everyone and at the same time neglecting what i want. After all its MY WEDDING we are talking about here.

Especially to Mr RJ, no hard feelings. I know, people like you may have been extra sensitive about things, but let me get this clearly to you that the reason why I didn't hire you as my wedding planner is simply because your design is not in the range of my theme. Don't get me wrong. A lot of people do think your design is superb. If not, you won't be having customers from all over Malaysai seeking for your service.

See, the thing is when it comes to wedding especially with the name "Suhana & Amzari" in it we rather stick to the traditional one. I still want to wear kebaya and songket for my big day. And he still wants a kompang team to liven our special day.

I am so sorry for not hiring you. I hope you can stop insulting me or the bridal shop I'm hiring or the kompang team or anything to do with my wedding. I do not want things to get uglier. You haven't seen the dark side of me yet. Believe me you wouldn't wanna.

Besides, if I don't hire you there are still plenty of people who are interested in your creation so don't be such a jerk! Trust me I didn't mean to flush your business down the toilet.

Hah! That's better.

Oh, on a separate happy note, darling is coming back today. How I miss him so much. Hehe...Padahal dulu-dulu jumpe 2 bulan sekali pun tak kisah. SInce he's staying like a jiffy from my house every week jumpe pun macam tak puas. Kemaruk nak kawin agaknye eheheh.

Monday, July 30, 2007

To my friend M

Got a message from a bestfriend about this particular friend of mine M. Among us she was M. I don't know if she still remember our nicknames. We had so much fun last time, the three of us. I missed our wacky moments in our previous workplace. All I'm saying is I really missed M!

Seriously. I sooo wanted to meet her. Suddenly I've been thinking. I don't know what i'm going to say. Its been a couple of years.What if she's not the same person I used to know. I dont wanna meet her with an opposite character. That is so not her. I dont want her to change. I want the clumsy, blurry, silly yet smart and sexy M. I missed our crazy laughter together. I missed having our breakfast, and lunch and teatime and our sneakout during office hour to catch a movie (haha.yes, giler i know!) And our gym days. Bellydancing hehe...

Ooohhh...but somehow the reality is I know shes changed. She's not the same clumsy pretty lass like I've known her before. She's even got smarter and more matured since she got married I think.

Dear M, whoever you are now, I hope you will cherished the time we have shared together. That year was among the best year of my life. Thank you for making journey of life more colurfull. Hope to see you next month at our ex-colleague's wedding.

Miss you!

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

Menghitung Hari (edited)

Today is Sunday, 26th of August. A couple months away from this day, I will be a 'Mrs'. Wow. Counting days you guys!

Am I ready to be sucked into the other side of the world (quote from eva hehe)????

Thursday, July 19, 2007

Hide n Seek

There's this one bunch of students who never fails to salam n cium my hands whenever they stumbled into me. At first I was like, Oh bagusnya budak ni. Ade jugak yg still respect cikgu. Sejuk perut ibu mengandung

But things are getting a little bit weird when everytime and I mean everyyyyytime we bumped into each other they would reach out for my hands and do their thing. Don't get me wrong here but I find it uneasy and... okey, yes they annoyed me.

So, for the last two weeks I tried not to expose myself to them. I even turned around when I see them from afar walk to another longer route to my next class just to avoid them. HAHA.God, sangat jahatnyer aku sebagai seorang teacher!!

Some of my colleagues pun even noticed this students punyer perangai yg mcm over excited bile jumpe aku. They went like, Oh cikgu baru n lawa je diorang nak salam. Memilih....Sheeesh!! I mean take. Be in my shoes and take all my place for I need some peace here.

Seriously saya sudah tidak tahan dgn mereka yg suke sgt tagging me along whenever I go. They even wait for me to arrive at school and will take all my bags and stuff (even my handbag, but I refuse to give laa!!) and put them on my desk. I can not run anymore!!!!!!

I mean, sekali sekala tu boleh la. Bayangkan sehari 5-6 kali jumpe dok nak salam2. Rimas seh!

To the aforementioned students, I am sorry for being such a terrible teacher. It was the profession who chose me. Not the other way round. Take it or.....well, you just have to take it guys. Im yours r. Muahahahha....

Saturday, July 14, 2007

Friday the 13th

Facts about this particular day.

Being Friday 13th, what does paraskevidekatriaphobia mean?

paraskevi means Friday, dekatria means thirteen and phobia means phobia. So there you have it fear of Friday the 13th

Which is odd because the Greeks have an irrational fear of Tuesday the 13th for some reason (tritidekatriaphobia)

Friday the 13th (Getty Images)

I am claustrophobic hihi...

Friday, June 22, 2007


Two kiddos from my class are moving out this week. I feel a bit sad. They are so nice and adorable. After this sapelah nak dengar aku ngaja lagi now that they are gone???

Oh, I lost inspiration already hehe..

Budak yg baik baik jugak yg pindah. Sekali 2 pulak tu! Yang terjal terjal ni taknak pulak dier pindah. Sheeeshh...

Well I wish none other that the best in your life undertakings Hafidz and Fazli. Jangan lupe cikgu okay, sob sob sob...


Its really really hard to deal with when you have all four corners of your life being pushed. All with their own different sky high expectation respectively. After a while I think I just can't take it anymore.

I do not want to say this but I HATE MY JOB! I don't know why is God punishing me with all these. Well, I think I know. Keep it to myself tho. But its not fair! Im not the ugliest person in this world. There are many person whom practice corruption yet still be a filthy rich person. There are many person whom named as a Muslim but never practice their religion. Okay no offense but Im just making a point here.

Anyway, all I want to say is stop depending on me with all your hopes and dreams. Frankly speaking I am so sorry for not reaching your expectation. Specifically I can not be a great teacher. I don't think I want to do this thing for the rest of my life. I wish I can stay at home and be a homemaker. Money I don't care. The wages increment doesnt affected me at all. I long forgotten what happiness feels like.

I just want my life back. Siape yg kate jadi cikgu ni senang, YOU ARE DEAD WRONG!!!The students I can take it, but the management yg very killing me! Haih complaint and more complaint....

Im drained out

I think Im turning into them coldhearted persons....

Saturday, June 9, 2007







Tuesday, May 29, 2007

Move In Move On holiday is here once again. Another time for lazying around the house and make a total ignorant to the piling jobs that await. Yes, I got tonnes of exam paper to mark. But that one can wait. Tihihihi...

Anyway, Im not sure whether what Im going to tell is somewhat a good news or else. My fiancee is moving here! I mean his tranfer applicatication was approved. He's going to teach here in Kluang. Not only that he'll be teaching at a school next to mine! He was shocked, I was shocked everybody in his school were shocked. He didn't expect at all that his boss would approved for his first time application.

I don't know what to say. I mean Im used to seeing him once a month instead, I got to see him like everyday from now on. Weird...

Oh well, orang kata rezeki nak kahwin. I should be more optimistic. Speaking of which, I haven't done anything for my wedding. And its another 4 months to go!!!!

Monday, May 21, 2007

Kisah Rumput n Kasih Sayang Manusia

Copied from a friend (boyae tq anyway. hehe!). If only I can be as great a teacher as this one....hhmmmm

Pada suatu pagi di satu sekolah menengah, ada seorang pelajar bertanya pada seorang guru yang sedang mengajar. Ketika itu, guru tersebut sedang menyentuh mengenai kasih dan sayang secara am. Dialog di antara pelajar dan guru tersebut berbunyi begini :

Pelajar : Cikgu, macam mana kita nak pilih seseorang yang terbaik sebagai orang paling kita sayang?. Macam mana juga kasih sayang itu nak berkekalan?

Cikgu : Oh, awak nak tahu ke?.Emmm...baiklah, sekarang kamu buat apa yang saya suruh. Ikut je ye...mungkin kamu akan dapat apa jawapannya.

Pelajar : Baiklah...apa yang saya harus buat?

Cikgu : Kamu pergi ke padang sekolah yang berada di luar kelas sekarang juga. Kamu berjalan di atas rumput di situ dan sambil memandang rumput di depan kamu, pilih mana yang PALING cantik tanpa menoleh ke belakang lagi walaupun sekali. Dan kamu petiklah rumput yang PALING cantik yang berada di depan kamu tersebut dan selepas itu bawa balik ke kelas.

Pelajar : Ok. Saya pergi sekarang dan buat apa yang cikgu suruh. Apabila pelajar tersebut balik semula ke kelas, tiada pun rumput yang berada di tangannya. Maka cikgu pun bertanya kepada pelajar tersebut.

Cikgu : Mana rumput yang cikgu suruh petik?

Pelajar : Oh, tadi saya berjalan di atas rumput dan sambil memandang rumput yang berada di situ, saya carilah rumput yang paling cantik. Memang ada banyak yang cantik tapi cikgu kata petik yang paling cantik maka saya pun terus berjalan ke depan sambil mencari yang paling cantik tanpa menoleh ke belakang lagi. Tapi sampai di penghujung padang , saya tak jumpa pun yang paling cantik. Mungkin ada di antara yang di belakang saya sebelum itu tapi dah cikgu cakap tak boleh menoleh ke belakang semula, jadi tiadalah rumput yang saya boleh petik.

Cikgu : Ya, itulah jawapannya. Maknanya, apabila kita telah berjumpa dengan seseorang yang kita sayang, janganlah kita hendak mencari lagi yang lebih baik daripada itu. Kita patut hargai orang yang berada di depan kita sebaik-baiknya. Janganlah kita menoleh ke belakang lagi kerana yang berlaku tetap dah berlaku. Dan semoga yang berlalu tidak lagi berulang.

Jika kita berselisih faham dengan orang yang kita sayang itu, kita boleh perbetulkan keadaan dan cuba teruskan perhubungan tersebut walaupun banyak perkara yang menggugat perhubungan tersebut.

Dan ingatlah orang yang kita sayang itulah kita jumpa paling cantik dan paling baik pada MULAnya walaupun nak ikutkan banyak lagi yang cantik dan baik seperti rumput tadi.

KECUALILAH jika perhubungan tersebut tak boleh diselamatkan lagi, maka barulah kita mulakan sekali lagi. Maka sayangilah orang yang berada di depan kita dengan tulus dan ikhlas

Friday, May 18, 2007


Okay, so I was a day late. Anyway how was y'all teachers out there celebrate your special day?

Well, I celebrated my debut teacher's day way better than I had expected. I don't know about the rest of my colleague teachers but personally, my first time celebrating the day was so meaningful and of course memorable!

So what did I do yesterday? Let's see...I participate in Sukaneka and I played netball with the students. And we won (of course la the kids bagi chance kitorang menang kan...). Tiba2 teringat last time I played netball was in MPPM and I accidentally stuck a finger in my friend's nose. Tulah Niza sapa suruh hang tinggi sangat n berdiri kat belakang aku plak tu dekat sangat. Nak sambut bola jari tersangkut kat lain plak. HAHAHA. Sorry ek Niza peace!!!

Anyway I don't like netball. My former lecturer said it was a graceful game. I say its a perfect game to start a fight. Oh well...

Back to the original story, so we won the game. After the game there was this few award giving by the students and voted by the students. Ala-ala MTV KId's Choice la hehe. At first I find this stuff very bosan la. Of course la we already knew who are the most garang teachers in school for a very obvious reason (yawning). And suddenly, to my horrific surprise I was nominated among the most sporting teacher! Hah! I was like experiencing near death you know! Seeing my own face filling the big screen left me very speechless. Crazy kids! Don;t you have someone else to pick? And the most important don't you realize how fierce I was? Hehe...

Anyway I didn't win la. But to be shortlisted among the mentioned category was somewhat honorable. Not bad for my not even half year at the school huh? So the kids noticed me laa all along hehe. Glamer gak aku haha wink wink).

And the presents! They are dolls, the kids. Never had I imagined the bundle of presents would lay on my desk. So happy la I dont know how to tell! Thank you kids!

So I would like to take this opportunity to wish all the teachers out there HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY (tho kinda late, sorry!) especially to my mum, my darling fiancee (kesian dia x dpt celebrate for the 3rd time ye sayang? tiap taun outstation time that date) and my dearest ex-MPPM girls wherever they are. Not forgetting my fellow colleagues @ SMKTABK. Marilah kita menjana modal insan yang cemerlang! Ceh macam poyo plak hehe...

Tuesday, May 15, 2007


Okey my demented lil sis has left for Matrikulasi Johor @ Tangkak this morning. Only a few hours and I miss her already. Butty, u r right. Dekat bau taik jauh bau wangi hehe...

And my darling also masuk hutan for a week since yesterday. Dah macam askar pulak. He's taking the students for a Wilderness Camp Adventure somewhere in Langkawi. Syok la dia bercuti! Aku kat sini...

Missing two precious persons in my life at a time really driving me nuts. Okey, some mights say alaa a week isn't that long. Pejam celik jer dah seminggu. I can not put it into words la this kind of feeling. He's in Melaka I still can take it la, but in Langkawi the whole week and no sms or phone call (hutan takde line daa) well, may be Im just a lil too over reacting. I don't know...

Anyway, to my sis, all the best there. Tak sangka dah besar adik aku ni. Dah masuk matrik hehe...and to my darling, do take care of yourself there and cepat-cepat laa abis seminggu!

Have a nice week y'all!

Thursday, May 10, 2007


I hate it when time flies. 3 days didnt seem enough for me to spit out a whole full bags of beans. Anyway meeting up with the girls were a blast! Hey, I miss u guys already!!!!

On another note, being awarded a DISTINCTION apparently occured absolutely nothing to me. Pointless. Meaningless. Why?

School holiday is just around the corner. Looking forward to meet my sweetheart. Yeay! Boy, this long distance (not so the distance lah hehe) relationship is really killing me!

Itu jer lah yang aku pikir sekarang ni. Cuti sekolah hehe.

Oh anyway there's gonna be a BIG programme for me after the holiday. And it involves the MOE. Aiyoh, why do I have to be that girl in duty. Pffftttt.......

Monday, April 30, 2007


The most annoying and irritating person I hate the most and could rule the top charts on my despise list for ages...would be my boss! And her cronies...

Yup. She's a real b****. I know it sounded too harsh but you just don't know her. She denies all our rights for a shitty reasons no one in a clear state of mind would have except them.

Anyway I despise her with all my heart. Nothing in this world could change that for now. Sometimes I imagine bad things would happen to her and she would just knelt over us all begging for forgiveness. I am the cruel one that's right...just say it. I don't care less!

When is she retiring anyway? Doesn't she has any chronic diseases or something?

Friday, April 20, 2007

Sweet Escape!

My convo is 2 weeks away and I have nothing to wear!

Oh its going to be great catching up with the girls. Damn I miss them so much! Very looking forward for this exciting days!

Okey, okey fine. So I am going to ditch this horrible place I'm working at just for a couple of days. I mean this is the only time when I can take a time off from those brats at school. Nothing wrong with that rite? Rite?

What a sweet escape!

Going Flat

I noticed that when Im wearing a flat shoes I save more energy than usual! Being a teacher that requires me to walk up the 4th floor 4 times a day, climbing to the staff room 10 times a day and standing while teaching in the class whole day it somehow sounds so absurd for me to slip on a pair of high heels. I wonder still how do the other female teachers can stand the torture?

Flat shoes give is very comfy, roomier and easy for me to move around real quick and the best part is, those brats at school can never guess when im around and getting nearer to them hehe...Best time to attack.Surpise surprise!

Well not that sexy me aight? I know. I think otherwise...

Anyway on a happy note both my Sis and future SIL were qualified to enroll in the KPM Foundation programme in Tangkak. Congrats to both u lovely sis!

And on another separate happy note, Happy 3rd Anniversary to dearest Deqnor & Razi. 3 beautiful years with 2 cuddly heroes to brighten up their days. And I am still the same me with extra 10 lbs heavier. Sheeeesh. I hate it when time flies! Oh and thank you Deq for keeping in touch.Very much appreciated!

p/s: My darling fiancee also has been gaining weight. He thought maybe its not about the way we eat(hey, I watch my diet okey?). Its the hormone. What do you think? Hmmmm???

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Dip. Ed.

Went to IPPM yesterday. I waited like ages for them to post my result. I had myself sent them an empty envelope for their convenience to rerpost it back to me but no, they are all "too busy" for God only knows what...So I decided to take things on my own.

And guess what?? I got 3.61 woohoo!!! Congratulations Suhana!Well surely there are plenty of them whom are way more genius than I am. But that is not the point. I made another record for my life achievement.Good for me hehe.

Yes I may be excellent in education theoretically but technically I'm not as good as a teacher. How can I be one if I never have a heart in this area. Im not saying that I was a good RO either. When I was an RO I never get to complain of the terrible loadworks.I somehow enjoy the piling up of my desk.

Im not saying that I dislike teaching because of the small pay. To tell u the truth the pay was equivalent to my last post. Im talking about work passion here. Its almost 4 months and still I imagine handling a pippette when actually I was holding a chalk in my hand. Hehe..The thing is I sometimes miss my job. I wish I could get back to the area of researching. But u know the saying everything happens for areason. I can accept that.

Its just that being a teacher is not as easy as you think. Whats with the students, the colleague and ooohh did i mentioned about the school birocracy? Its suck!

Oh well at least I get a full support from my darling fiancee.I must say he is a very good teacher. A tough one. the school like very much depending on him and yet he never complained. He is truly my inspiration.Wow suddenly I miss him so much. When was the last time I saw him??? Hmmm....Went to Melaka yesterday and not having the chance to meet him. What a waste. Oh right, he is schooling while Im not hehe...

Anyway wish me luck. Iam currently jeopardising my whole entire life!

Sunday, March 25, 2007

Not Forgiven Nor Forgotten

Okey, before anything let me tell you that im not being harsh to anyone by the look of the blog entry. I think that I am being insulted. Offended more likely.

I have a friend, X. So this friend maybe a bit short-tempered person. Apparently X likes to pour her anger at no matter anyone at me. I can take it if I make her angry. But no!! Remember I wrote about me being the punching bag?? X happens to be my regular customer...

Well, surely X would apologizes the next day and things would be just as normal afterwards.The thing is I don't think I can sincerely forgive X. Once in a while boleh la, kalau selalu?

Yeah, call me a vindictive person. Maybe I am. I mean, whats the point of forgiving a person when you perfectly sure that she/he will do the same mistake over and over again? Somehow SORRY is no longer an apologizing sacred word for me no more. Its a typical over used phrase! When you simply forgive a person its like you giving them a season pass to repeat the same stupid mistakes whenever they feel free to do so??

Now tell me who is being cruel and unfair?

Obviously not me!

Im not holding grudges for nothing.

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Flying Colours

Alhamdulillah my sister Suhailah obtained 7As for her SPM. That is waaaaayyy better than mine 10 years ago hehe. Come to think about it, mine wasn't just bad, it was terrible! Phheeww...but I made it to the best tertiary education centre in Malaysia.Tough luck eh? My future SIL Atiqah also not bad. She got 8As. Budak-budak sekarang ni pandai-pandai belaka. Ke aku jer dulu yang....

Anyway BIG CONGRATULATIONS to both of them lovely sisters. Hopefully they would enroll in the best university and the course of their choices and most of all not ending up like me. Seriously Im happy for both of u girls!

On a separate happy note, congratulation also to my other future SIL Ilyani and hubby Joe for their first newborn baby. And its a girl! She must be so adorable.Like me.Hehe.Can't wait to meet her this coming weekend.

Thursday, February 22, 2007

The Ring Bearer (edited)

Alhamdulillah the ceremony went well. A million thanks to all who came to my engagement. For those who cant make it to my day, well it would've been merrier if u guys were there! Sadly not much pictures were taken. I'm not sure what kept me busy that day??

Anyway, still I can not believe that ...I am engaged!

May our love last for eternity. Remains forever. Amin.

Friday, February 16, 2007

The One Who Celebrates His Birthday

Today 15 February 2007 is my darling Amzari's birthday. I am so glad that my card arrived exactly today and could give him some sort of a surprise. Well, at least I make him smile after a long day at school.

To the love of my life, may all your dreams come true. May you lead a happy life and may our love remains forever. For eternity. Amin.

On another happy note, I am sooooo relief that my annual school's Sports Day finally over. Oh, u have no idea how hectic I was this whole week. I mean of course every week is a hectic week, but this one is really a major super hectic week!

U see, of all the hundreds teachers in the school, I was so unfortunate to be picked as the emcee for, in my opinion a big hell of an event. I have to be at school as early as 8am in the morning return home just to change cloth and headed back to school to teach in the evening. And I call it a day at 7pm.

Fiuuuuhhh...I know maybe for some of u mine was not such a big deal. But get this.Doing the thing u have no idea what ur doing or have not an inch of interest of doing it at all for almost 12 hrs straight for a week. How about that? Yeah..u know what Im saying.Terrible!!

Now that the damage has been done,(Oh did I tell u what a horrible emcee I was hehe...) its time to get thrilled for the next event.OMG I cannot believe Sunday is just two days away!!!! The one event of my life. Im so excited. I really hope my best buddies can come on my special day. But I know they are all far away and may have their own agenda. But girls, I really really appreciate it if u can make it. Pleaseeeeeee hehe...

I hope everything is going to be fine this weekend. I miss him so much.After a very hard week its good to see the face that tranquilizes me instantly. After all its been a while since I last saw him.

To all my friends, do pray for our happiness.Luv u guys, really!

Friday, February 9, 2007

Blues Untuk Aku

have u ever wake up in the morning feeling something isn't right. u wanted so much to get back into slumber. but no matter how hard u try u just couldn't.

i do. almost everyday. the moment i open my eyes the sense of uneasiness crawling instantly up my chest, back my spine n all over my body. i wish i wasn't awake at that time. i dunno what causes that thing to happen n why. okey, okey. i do know why. but even if i tell u won't gonna believe me. or do u????

i miss him. there. i spilled it out. oh, it is soooo embarassing. i know u'd laugh!

well, that was only one ten of the cause. the rest i need not have to state it here.

see, the feeling of missing somebody is somewhat a disturbance! i could go mad had i not pull myself together. i could kill myself if i keep on carried away like this!

i like it yet hate it at the same time. it makes me so weak and vulnerable.*sigh*

the feeling of missing someone is truly undoubtly an ultimate powerful feeling i guess no one can deny.

am i right or am i right??

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

The Waves

When the first flood hit Johor, me and my family were still on our vacation. Return back home, I was so surprised to see Kluang had turned into a floating city!Never in my whole life had I seen flood as big as that one.

When the second wave strucked I was there to witness the situation. To some certain areas the latter was even worser than the previous. Me and my family was very fortunate.Alhamdulillah my place was not affected by both tragedies.

Thank you dear friends for all your concerns. You guys are the sweetest! Not to worry I am perfectly fine here. To all the flood victims, my greatest condolences to them all for their losses - premises, assets and loved ones. May Allah give them strength to face the third wave (hope there isn't one!).

Monday, January 8, 2007

Virtual Friend (NOT!)

I have this weird friend (hmmm is he really a friend?) who likes to text me at wee hours.Between 3-5 am in the morning.I mean is he on the other side of the world??As far as I concern he is merely a couple of hours from here.I think...

Anyway FYI I met his acquantance also in a weird way. Okey this the the wordt part.You see, he found a stranded wallet somewhere in NT and it so happen that only a card complete with my details on it was left remain inside it. So acting like a good Samaritan he called my number to inform about his discovery.

Dah la his words very annoying."Takkan awak tak ingat wallet boyfriend sendiri?Ni mesti ramai boyfriend ni?" I was like, hello Mr. Nice Guy, have u got no manners at all?No communication skill wahtasoever?Bad PR betul la mamat ni....

So to cut it short, it was one of my students'.So he was like"Eh, awak ni cikgu?" and I went "Yeah.Why?You got problem with that?" and he laughed irritatingly saying that we are on the same boat. He is also a KPLI teacher. Lepas tu barulah dier ckp elok2 sikit.Lama plak tu.Like I care...

He on the other side begitu gembira dipertemukan dgn aku.Heh.Silly.He ask me whether he can keep the card.Bodoh.Tadi kemain ckp takde manners dgn aku, dandan nak minta kad tu plak.Menyesal aku ckp tak kawin lagi.Awat laa lurus sgt suhana oi?!

Well, shit happens sumtimes.

Friday, January 5, 2007


I am now finally a graduate teacher. I am also glad to be posted at SMKTAB. I could hardly remember the twist and turns in the school after over a decadeI last stepped there.

Somehow....Im not saying that I do not like being in here, but I can not resist but to keep on remeniscing days in SMKLC. To tell you the truth I actually missed all the things there!!The teachers, the lab assistants the staff and my cute loyal adorers the students. I mean of course practical weeks were near to death for me but I dunno I miss them all.Guys, how I wish Im a permenent teacher there.Wait.Will I be happy there.No? Then why do they keep on crossing in my mind?? The things I've done there in school, in the hostel at the small town.Why??????

Im stressed my brain hurts. I need help.I want my sayang......

Tuesday, January 2, 2007

Meet my Parent

This is insane. Im not dreaming obviously.Like he promised, Amzari did came and met my parent yesterday.010107.Im not sure whether he is the crazy one or me.Okey.Im crazy.He is even crazier.Affirmative.But actually Im very very glad you see. Yesterday was the most happiest day. Such a good start for new year dont you think?? Everything turn out soo well my fright gradually disappeared by itself (dia yang datang jumpe parent aku, aku plak yg gelabah lebih, ape kes??) hehe...I think my parent and my granny they all like him.Hopefully.

He is a person full of surprises.Sometimes it seems so impossible for me to cope up with them all.But I like! Thank you sayang. You mean so much to me, muah!

Happy New Year to all


Tying the Knots

This entry was supposed to be published last year hehe...Somehow lazying around kept me buzy. Oh well, its end of the year and again everybody is getting married. The same lame yet popular question popping out to me is when is my turn?? Scary really.....

Strange enough, I noticed that I shed tears in almost every weddings I attended.Stupid I know.The thing is I get a little confused sometimes. Was it a tears of joy or otherwise. Well of course Im very happy for my friends, especially close ones that they end up married happily ever after.

Okey, last few years maybe the tears ,meant something for me. I mean I used to also question when will be my turn. Now that Im seeing someone, the same old lame question (refer Par. 1) becomes even scarier!!

Anyway, I know Im ready when Im ready aight? Of course I want to get married.Who doesnt??The thing is how can u tell whether you are married to the right person? No.Its not that I dont trust Amzari.Or being so judgemental on him.He's been a darling so far.Sooo....

And he wants to meet my parent with or without my permission. Why am I being suronded by scary people. Come again??

Oh, btw congratulations to dear friends on your weddings. No mre shed tears for me, its time to shed some kilos I certainly do not have a single clue where did they come from(wink wink) hehe...




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