MISS MATCH n THE ONE WITH THE BRAIN

A COUPLE OF YEARS AGO, THAT WAS, A FEW MONTHS AFTER MY LAST BREAK UP TO BE PRECISE, I HAD THIS HORRIBLE IMAGINATION OF ENDING UP MY LIFE AS A PATHETIC SPINSTER LIVING WITH FORTY CATS AND SPENDING THE REST OF MY LIFE REGRETTING THE THINGS I SHOULD OR SHOULDN'T SAID OR DONE IN THE PAST.IN OTHER WORDS, I WAS TERRIFIED OF NOT HAVING ANYBODY BY MY SIDE WHENEVER I NEED ONE.AND FOR THAT REASON, I HAD MY FRIENDS RUNNING AROUND HERE AND THERE, PANICKEDLY SEARCHING FOR A SINGLE GUY AS A REPLACEMENT FOR MY PRIOR LOST.SEE, THAT WAS THE MOST ULTIMATE FOOL OF ME.HOW CAN I BE THAT DESPERATE??SHEEEESHHH.....

BUT NOW...THINGS DID CHANGE QUITE DRASTICALLY.I MEAN, NOW, I CAN ACTUALLY LIVE MY LIFE WITHOUT DEPENDING ON OTHERS.I MUST SAY, IM VERY PROUD OF HOW I CARRY MYSELF NOWADAYS!I REALLY CAN STAND TALL ON MY OWN CUTE LIL FEET!!AND IT WAS THIS TIME AROUND WHEN I THOUGHT EVERYTHING IS PERFECTLY A OKAY, SOMETHING UNEXPECTED CAME IN THE PICTURE.ALL OF A SUDDEN, AS IF EVERYBODY WANTED TO MATCHMAKE ME WITH THEIR SINGLE RELATIVES OR ACQUAINTANCES FROM ALL SORTS...UNBELIVABLE BUT TRUE, EVEN A PAKCIK SEATED NEXT TO ME ON A BUS WANTED TO INTRODUCED ME TO HIS NIECE!WHAT'S GOING ON HERE???I, IN RETURN AS SILLY AS I CAN GET, GOT REALLY, REALLY FREAKED OUT I DONT WHY THE HECK I REACTED AS SUCH!WELL, AS I WAS SAYING, I NEVER EVER EXPECTED SOMETHING LIKE THIS WOULD HAPPEN, NOW THAT I ACTUALLY CLOSE MY HEART TO ANY SERIOUS RELATIONSHIP AND CONCENTRATE ONLY ON MY PROGRAMME...

RIGHT, SO I GOT FREAKED OUT...I MEAN, REMIND ME AGAIN WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO??ITS NOT LIKE I DO NOT APPRECIATED WHAT MY DEAR FRIENDS HAD DONE FOR ME...NO, NOO...THEY ARE JUZ SO SWEEEET N I THANK THEM FOR THEIR CONCERN.BUT REALLY,I KNOW I WAS SUPPOSED TO GET EXCITED, WAS I??THERE IS SOMEBODY OUT THERE WHO STILL FIND ME ATTRACTIVE, IS THERE??WHAT WAS I THINKING....

ONCE, I REMEMBER ANSWERING A QUESTION FROM A CLOSE FRIEND OF MINE.AND I TOLD HER, ALL I WANT IN A GUY IS INTELLECTUALITY.THE SAVANT.NUFF SAID.THAT EXPLAINS IT ALL DOESNT IT?THAT COULDNT BE TOO CRUEL OR TOO MUCH TO ASK RIGHT?RIGHT??

COME TO THINK OF ALL MY STUPID FREAKISH MOMENT, I JUZ CANT HELP MYSELF BUT TO WONDER WHO AM I WAITING FOR IN THIS SHORT BORROWED LIFE?PERHAPS SOMEONE WHOM I LONG KNEW WOULDNT BE MINE FOREVER????